Sticky Post - About Me
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dontfallSo there should be something here that tells folks who I am. And I’m realizing I have to fix that minimum access default, lol, so this can be seen by folks outside of my access list.
About Me
I’m in my mid-thirties and I’ve lived in Pennsylvania, USA all my life. I originally planned on being a literature teacher or professor but stopped at a BA. I worked odd jobs while in school: pharmacies, cd stores, dvd stores, etc. And with the lit degree, I became a writing tutor. Later in a sort of related job, I was encouraged to develop my tech skills, which were just something of a hobby and interest before. I went back to school for another degree, and now I work in IT. It’s been a long, strange trip. I’d like to do more and be better, but that’s a work in progress.
Fandom
This will be short because I’m not very interesting. When I was 7 or 8, I found Sailor Moon and became OBSESSED. My first foray into fandom. America had a limited amount of episodes, so over several years up to ages 10 and 11, I had to find online synopses of the episodes I never got to see. But this of course led to me realizing how many others loved the show and wanted to share it.
Next, I’d develop my interest in The X-Files, a show my older sister initially watched before I went on to fixate on it to an alarming (and probably still alarming) degree. This was REAL online fandom. I found the usenet groups even though I was too young to really know what to do with them. I also found fanfic. I’d admittedly found one Sailor Moon fic I liked, but I didn’t know it was a thing. I was a wee baby. I would eventually try my hand at writing fanfiction. I’m sure my age was apparent, but older wonderful women in the fandom were encouraging and even a bit protective. My youthful forays into fandom were really wonderful. I wish I had truly known how to keep in touch with the folks I met along the way.
Interestingly, I became a fan of so many other things (Sliders, Forever Knight, Highlander, tons of anime - especially Dragonball Z), but I was either too young or too prone to single fandom obsession (a habit of mine still) such that I never joined into their fandoms actively. I had bad experiences in grade school, so skipping ahead to high school (which is good because honestly I was hardcore into X-Files fandom up to 8th grade anyway), things changed. I met one of my best friends who got me to read Harry Potter, books I didn’t think were all that good but BOY DID I REALLY LOVE HARRY AND DRACO. So I became that little shit who consumed Harry/Draco fic like it was the tastiest food ever made. Simultaneously, my sister and I got into Smallville and I truly began to ship Clex. I also wrote a couple of fanfics....they are terrible; we will speak no more about this.
College was when I got into Supernatural. Holy fuck did I. And I saw Castiel and that spelled the end to any good sense I have. Is it a good show? Not really, certainly not passed season 5, but I will die on the hill that is Castiel. I went to cons, had lovely experiences, made friends. Also, I got into Star Trek, even nuTrek at this time, despite not particularly liking the movies because JJ Abrams is the worse, but I loved and still love the cast. I ended up actually getting into RPF for the first and only time of my life so far: Pinto (Chris Pine/Zachary Quinto). I met oodles of REALLY lovely people this way, some of whom are still my friends. God, I love them to bits.
From here I sort of swung back to SPN for a bit, mostly because some of the Pinto Beans (fans of Pinto) I met were also fans. After the heyday, I ended up decided to give a bunch of other shows a try on the recommendation of friends and subsequently fell in love with Due South, Slings and Arrows, Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis (and shit did I read A LOT of McShep fic, fuck yeah), etc.
Then, COVID happened and I made a decision. I decided to watch The Untamed...and NOW LOOK WHAT HAPPENED TO ME! :P Another friend commended Guardian. I’ve watched other shows with friends, too, and now I’m on Word of Honor, and just...yup, I have gone down this rabbit hole. I’d liked kdramas previously but hadn’t watched much cdrama, but now I’ve lost control of my life :D. I’m glad for it because I’ve now developed MORE friendships and also I’ve gotten a chance to get to know folks I’d been following before but maybe hadn’t matched fandoms with them at the same time.
I’m sure there is so much I missed (like all the music I’ve been into and associated fandoms), but I’ll go back and refine over time! :D
One thing to know, though, is that I’m not really a content creator. Despite some badly written fics in my past, I don’t have much talent with video creation, writing, etc. I’m here to support my talented friends, though. I will read, kudos, encourage, and cheer for you. I’m so grateful for all the wonderful things out there to enjoy: art, story, meta, etc. I’d like to maybe try my hand at some content creation, but I don’t know what kind and I’m pretty....anxious about it, so we’ll see.
Anyway, I think it is clear I like escapism. Always have, always will. But it’s brought a lot of good to my life. People to talk to, people to admire, works to enjoy, etc.
Life
I do not want to be a Debbie Downer. I’m anxious and depressed, so much so I saw a therapist for it. But mostly, I try to work on it and keep moving forward. I will admit COVID has uhh...made it difficult to maintain a nice level of...not fucked-upness (for everyone, not just me, I know). I try not to let my own issues affect how I interact with others, but if it spills over, call me out. I’d appreciate it I and would be unlikely to take it as an act of conflict.
About ten years ago, I was heavier and dieted and have kept the weight off until COVID, so I’m on a diet again. I may occasionally bring up diet and fitness. In moderate amounts, they help assist with my cognitive behavioral exercises to maintain a relatively less shit mental state. THAT BEING SAID, I know diet and/or fitness can be triggers for others, so I will tag. Also, my body image and perception of what is or isn’t healthy for me personally is not a broader statement. I know it is hard to divorce that from what the world wants us to think, believe me I know, but I’m even working on healthier body acceptance.
All the above being said, if you have anxiety and depression and it is comorbid with traits of OCD, you might see where calorie restriction or observation can go....wrong. I have noted times when I’ve worried my well intentioned mindful eating (amount and quality of nutrients) might have slipped into a behavior intended to exert control in a world where I feel don’t have any. I try to be super aware of this, avoid external rhetoric that might support or worsen this line of thinking, and also acknowledge it in my own mind and combat it with alternative thought processes; it’s a work in progress.
I hope not to talk about this too much, tbh, but I thought it was fair to disclose.
***We’ll see how much of this I keep here. Mostly, I just want to have a nice place to expand on thoughts I can’t on Twitter. Livetweeting a show is all well and good, but getting into the gritty details about character can be hard. I’d also like to expand on friendships with folks by being able to have a window into each other’s thoughts that Twitter doesn’t afford.
Anyway, here’s hoping for all good things for everyone! <333
About Me
I’m in my mid-thirties and I’ve lived in Pennsylvania, USA all my life. I originally planned on being a literature teacher or professor but stopped at a BA. I worked odd jobs while in school: pharmacies, cd stores, dvd stores, etc. And with the lit degree, I became a writing tutor. Later in a sort of related job, I was encouraged to develop my tech skills, which were just something of a hobby and interest before. I went back to school for another degree, and now I work in IT. It’s been a long, strange trip. I’d like to do more and be better, but that’s a work in progress.
Fandom
This will be short because I’m not very interesting. When I was 7 or 8, I found Sailor Moon and became OBSESSED. My first foray into fandom. America had a limited amount of episodes, so over several years up to ages 10 and 11, I had to find online synopses of the episodes I never got to see. But this of course led to me realizing how many others loved the show and wanted to share it.
Next, I’d develop my interest in The X-Files, a show my older sister initially watched before I went on to fixate on it to an alarming (and probably still alarming) degree. This was REAL online fandom. I found the usenet groups even though I was too young to really know what to do with them. I also found fanfic. I’d admittedly found one Sailor Moon fic I liked, but I didn’t know it was a thing. I was a wee baby. I would eventually try my hand at writing fanfiction. I’m sure my age was apparent, but older wonderful women in the fandom were encouraging and even a bit protective. My youthful forays into fandom were really wonderful. I wish I had truly known how to keep in touch with the folks I met along the way.
Interestingly, I became a fan of so many other things (Sliders, Forever Knight, Highlander, tons of anime - especially Dragonball Z), but I was either too young or too prone to single fandom obsession (a habit of mine still) such that I never joined into their fandoms actively. I had bad experiences in grade school, so skipping ahead to high school (which is good because honestly I was hardcore into X-Files fandom up to 8th grade anyway), things changed. I met one of my best friends who got me to read Harry Potter, books I didn’t think were all that good but BOY DID I REALLY LOVE HARRY AND DRACO. So I became that little shit who consumed Harry/Draco fic like it was the tastiest food ever made. Simultaneously, my sister and I got into Smallville and I truly began to ship Clex. I also wrote a couple of fanfics....they are terrible; we will speak no more about this.
College was when I got into Supernatural. Holy fuck did I. And I saw Castiel and that spelled the end to any good sense I have. Is it a good show? Not really, certainly not passed season 5, but I will die on the hill that is Castiel. I went to cons, had lovely experiences, made friends. Also, I got into Star Trek, even nuTrek at this time, despite not particularly liking the movies because JJ Abrams is the worse, but I loved and still love the cast. I ended up actually getting into RPF for the first and only time of my life so far: Pinto (Chris Pine/Zachary Quinto). I met oodles of REALLY lovely people this way, some of whom are still my friends. God, I love them to bits.
From here I sort of swung back to SPN for a bit, mostly because some of the Pinto Beans (fans of Pinto) I met were also fans. After the heyday, I ended up decided to give a bunch of other shows a try on the recommendation of friends and subsequently fell in love with Due South, Slings and Arrows, Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis (and shit did I read A LOT of McShep fic, fuck yeah), etc.
Then, COVID happened and I made a decision. I decided to watch The Untamed...and NOW LOOK WHAT HAPPENED TO ME! :P Another friend commended Guardian. I’ve watched other shows with friends, too, and now I’m on Word of Honor, and just...yup, I have gone down this rabbit hole. I’d liked kdramas previously but hadn’t watched much cdrama, but now I’ve lost control of my life :D. I’m glad for it because I’ve now developed MORE friendships and also I’ve gotten a chance to get to know folks I’d been following before but maybe hadn’t matched fandoms with them at the same time.
I’m sure there is so much I missed (like all the music I’ve been into and associated fandoms), but I’ll go back and refine over time! :D
One thing to know, though, is that I’m not really a content creator. Despite some badly written fics in my past, I don’t have much talent with video creation, writing, etc. I’m here to support my talented friends, though. I will read, kudos, encourage, and cheer for you. I’m so grateful for all the wonderful things out there to enjoy: art, story, meta, etc. I’d like to maybe try my hand at some content creation, but I don’t know what kind and I’m pretty....anxious about it, so we’ll see.
Anyway, I think it is clear I like escapism. Always have, always will. But it’s brought a lot of good to my life. People to talk to, people to admire, works to enjoy, etc.
Life
I do not want to be a Debbie Downer. I’m anxious and depressed, so much so I saw a therapist for it. But mostly, I try to work on it and keep moving forward. I will admit COVID has uhh...made it difficult to maintain a nice level of...not fucked-upness (for everyone, not just me, I know). I try not to let my own issues affect how I interact with others, but if it spills over, call me out. I’d appreciate it I and would be unlikely to take it as an act of conflict.
About ten years ago, I was heavier and dieted and have kept the weight off until COVID, so I’m on a diet again. I may occasionally bring up diet and fitness. In moderate amounts, they help assist with my cognitive behavioral exercises to maintain a relatively less shit mental state. THAT BEING SAID, I know diet and/or fitness can be triggers for others, so I will tag. Also, my body image and perception of what is or isn’t healthy for me personally is not a broader statement. I know it is hard to divorce that from what the world wants us to think, believe me I know, but I’m even working on healthier body acceptance.
All the above being said, if you have anxiety and depression and it is comorbid with traits of OCD, you might see where calorie restriction or observation can go....wrong. I have noted times when I’ve worried my well intentioned mindful eating (amount and quality of nutrients) might have slipped into a behavior intended to exert control in a world where I feel don’t have any. I try to be super aware of this, avoid external rhetoric that might support or worsen this line of thinking, and also acknowledge it in my own mind and combat it with alternative thought processes; it’s a work in progress.
I hope not to talk about this too much, tbh, but I thought it was fair to disclose.
***We’ll see how much of this I keep here. Mostly, I just want to have a nice place to expand on thoughts I can’t on Twitter. Livetweeting a show is all well and good, but getting into the gritty details about character can be hard. I’d also like to expand on friendships with folks by being able to have a window into each other’s thoughts that Twitter doesn’t afford.
Anyway, here’s hoping for all good things for everyone! <333
